efes pilsen one love festival - 4

at last, what i wore...

denim shirt / from a local shop's men's section

striped top / h&m

black shorts / my aunt's olds

lace boots / from a local store

belt / from a second hand store in izmit - agraf

necklace / vintage

bag / kokosh outlet - amazing seller - one of my favourite bags it is!

glasses / flea market

i talked to my boss bout quitting my job.

but he really is not happy about it. how can he, there are at least 10 projects are waiting in line to be done and i am the only architect there in the office. pfff, he said in july i wont be able to get out of office before 10 pm.

we agreed on me working for another month, (i just cant leave people who wants some help) as you see. then in august i'll be free to do what i fancy.

for now, i am totally feeling unhappy, and down.

i feel alone. my mom keeps annoying me all the time. when we start talkin, after 2 sentences we nearly start shouting at each other. she is so pessimistic and i never understand that and i never will. that's why we keep arguing.

she is always so dramatic and she is always trying to see the worst parts of this life.

i dont get why, and i never will,

the thing is; i dont wanna get why! why should i?

being pessimistic is self destruction!

if you lived here you'd probably go mad.

i miss the days that i used to live in my own house.

imagine yourself coming home tired at 10 pm, mom always thinks and talks pessimistic. tells you to be the founder of your own office, build fucking stupid ordinary shit buildings , not to design anything and gain lots and tons of money.

she talks about it everyday, and when i say i dont want it she starts shouting at me!

well, i dont want it!

i hate people like that!

i'd rather die!

i'd rather work in burger king!

this place called my home, is death i tell you.

i wanna run away. so so so far away. and i dont wanna turn back.

i am so sick and tired of them, the way they see the life, i dont get it!

i want to sing songs and i want to dress,

i want to design, i want to read, i want to learn, i want to see,

i want to live! i want to feel that i'm alive!

i dont wanna feel like i'm like 80 years old.

i am sick of people telling me i should to this or that,

or crying in front of me for dramatic stage effects,

well i dont buy it, i hate it!

the thing is, that's why i always wanted to grow up when i was a child, coz this house these people were always like this,

and even for a childish perspective, i was tired of them.

now i am grown up enough, to die penniless.

and i am happy with that!

gif love

efes pilsen one love festival - 3

porcelain princess sophie ellis bextor!

i am a fan of hers since my high school times.

i love to sing her songs, i love to try her accent and fail =)

i love to steal her make up tips,

go for neon colours as she does.

she is totally inspiring in nearly everyway!

i tried to shoot her like 34567890 times but she was so white that she was shining like the moon =)

maybe i'll upload some videos of her on stage...

naaaah i'm too tired! i'm sorry,

you should've been there to see her amazing performance. =)

you missed a lot guys, you'll regret it for the rest of your life!

efes pilsen one love festival - 2

...getting wet while ilhan erşahin - istanbul sessions performing on the stage. we couldnt leave coz they were playing amazing, and london weather is always great in festivals. we were praying for that to happen just a few minutes ago before the rain. =)

i like that set they gave out in the festival area. my sister is a percussionist so this is a great instrument for her. she loves to make sound out of every stuff.

i love the little mariachi glasses a lot, i brought thousand of them home with me. =)

but my mom got upset about the size i guess coz she asked 'they didnt give out any tiny ones, like shot glasses?'...

damn, i'm late for work...again!

efes pilsen one love festival - 1

hey everyone!

...

well, i guess there's nothing to say about last weekend coz it was good. fun times.
i love the band dengesiz herifler, i am a total fan!
i got the chance to see them again after 5 years.
but the concert was so early that it went so dull, coz noone was there to pogo =)
that made me sad. but the band was amazing as always.
they have the best songs ever!

and this is what i wore...

photo's been taken before the rain.

i got so wet that my hair's been still crazy. and i still kinda feel cold and my feet are wrinkled. =)

and now, chimpanzee that shoe news! (i'm kinda in love with karl pilkington)

there were so many stylish people that i'd like to shoot but i was kinda embarrassed

coz you know, people were there to have fun freely, i just thought myself 'just leave 'em alone' but couldnt resist some other stuff unfortunately. and i took some photos. =)

for now,

kisses.

ps: find me a job, i'm quitting my job. it's up to here, i can't stand it anymore!

benim evim varmış mesela...

to be at work till 11:15 pm...
tired.
photos of my workmate. not me, for those who are more blind then me. (yep, more blind)















at last.. at home...at 11:30 pm. =)

at work (at işi)

nothing to tell about.

all the time i think about quitting my job nowadays.

heels / koton

white jeans / pull & bear

white top / nike

black tricot / ipekyol

bag / miu miu

sun is like a huge orange

there are 2 colours that i really dont like to wear.

one is orange, the other is purple.

but orange accessories, well i go for it sometimes. =)

i am so tired today, my boss had forgotten us in the office till 9:30 pm.

yep, like a stuff. he forgot. =)

seriously

how weird is that!

...aaand this is my new cream miu miu bow bag.

i love it!!!

 green linen top / koton - olé

jeans / denim co. (my favourite one)

miu miu cream bow bag

 orange flats / mudo

 orange scarf / mom's

terrible photos for my outfits

sorry but no place and time to shoot photos.

i have so amazing clothes and stuff but no time and place to show them off.

it is so sad.

i want to believe, everything will be okay. someday.

few months ago

totally missing those days...

at least i was 'really' designing somethings.

not killing my days off like i do now.

...it is a crime now.

miu miu bags...

i bought 2 miu miu bow bags with all my money. i worked hard for them!

that's all i wanted to say.

no that's not...

i'll buy a pair of vivienne westwood for melissa shoes, a prada and a balenciaga giant partytime bag.

yep, this is a long term plan. =) they are soo f*cking expensive.

i love stuff.

well, we all live in a material world and i am a material girl anyways.

and if i tear my ass all day in work, i assume i have the right to spend it on stuff.

and still i hate my job.