still...

still workin on some shit job. i only got 4 days left. still i got no drawings. yay, right?

this sketch shows the beginning spot of the ateliers nearside of a river.

just keep me hanging on...

arrrggghh i am sooo bored and sick of this project!

i am tired... i got enough of it!!!

i wanna get up early with sunshine through my window,

cook nice meals with my bf and watch movies,

go shopping, hang around all day and take fashion photos at different places.

i want to meet with my friends, drink and laugh through all night without thinkin anything

like ''how should i do that slope in front of my conference building?

is it wide enough for a 500 people hall?

how will i stand up for a shit project like that in front of the jury?

professors will kill me, i gotta study, i gotta draw...etc etc''...............

it is all like a nightmare.

i just want to be a simple person, away from all these 'planning and judging' thoughts.

i am sooooo tired of this architecture!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

12.01.2010 outfit

i slept like for 20 hours yesterday, it made my mood go up up and high!

but i'm still sleepy somehow. =)

i guess it is psychological coz every term when my presentation day gets closer,

i get nervous and i get sleepy.

my presentation day is in the 26th of january.

'tha day' is so close and my project still looks like shite.

but if i really achieve this, i am gonna be an architect.

this is weird though, coz god knows when i'll be a real architect and a designer, the fine one.

there are so much things to learn everytime you do something new and

the world of design is unlimited.

well, this is where the beauty is i guess. dont you think? =)

here's my outfit for today.

blue, cream and yellowish-brown are my favourite colours now-a-days.

button-up brown wool cardigan / dont remember

blue-cream checkered shirt / a local marketplace

denim skirt / mango

brown striped tights / penti

leather belt and jewelery / vintage

i dont like metal music

you know when you go some place to stay for the night,

you always get to wear what you never wanted =)

friends clothes are trouble, they smell a different detergent,

for some reason these clothes are made to be too baggy or too tight,

too long for not to be able to pee in the toilet or

too short that everyone can see your not-that-well-built belly =)

though i love my bf's tshirts. coz they are his!

but still i dont like metal music!

ps: he says he doesnt like metal music too,

and asked me if i can seriously write that down here. =)

-well, who put that tshirt in your wardrobe then mr. perfect?

before treatment - after treatment

Vlada Roslyakova
...beauty and style...

photos are from stockholm streetstyle

today's outfit

new photos, new photos!!! =)

i borrowed my friend's camera for a few shots.

by the way if you're wondering what is the mess in the photos;

it is the term ending so we are preparing our models and drawings and

everything about our architectural projects.

we are gonna hand in our projects at the end of this month.

so we'll be in that exact same (maybe more of it) mess for a long while.

in other words 'oOoOoOooOooooOOoooooOOOOh MISERY' =) for those who got it!

...and some upside down of my room. well, you see, ceiling is still not messed up.

i guess i still got room to shite. well, architects really have a space problem. =)

space is never -NEVER- enough!

jury time trivia;

well, i was sitting in front of my pc and working on my project for the last 3 days

and during these days i'd never got the chance stand up from my chair.

that's why, last 3 mornings were like this;

i tried to get up from bed, i thought i achived it i thought i got UP but no -hell no-

just a second after i got UP i was like a graffiti on the floor, lying stupidly.

coz my legs were not able to walk anymore. at least half an hour after i fell down from my bed=)

i really hate sitting in front of that laptop and draw day-n-night and go blind.

so i decided to go out today, have some oxygen.

...and the obvious result 'i shopped'! no doubt! =)

i have some lovely belongings now. one of them is the hat i'm wearing in the photo.

i'll show the other ones later on.

take care!

huge puffy hat / asortie

creamy linen shirt / i dont remember

denim look-a-like leggings / denim co

belt / vintage

brown leather booties / my mother's olds

bag / from a local store

edward norton & a bunch of 'fuck you's!

i am a fan of edward norton! the looks, the acting, everything about his work i adore!

this scene is from the movie '25th Hour'.

dont you wanna swear to anything in your life, anything that goin on?

you just cant say it to anyones faces, right?

we are just pathetic...

'fuck you!' is easy to say you know, but everything we wanna 'fuck' is the life that is inside us, and everything we wanna 'fuck' is just US that we've already been living inside that life and got lost.

so long story short, fuck you missnd,

you fucked up everything and you keep doing it!

fuck you, coz you dont know how to stop

and where to stop and fuck your lovely soul and heart!

by the way, i gotta find the 25th hour to make my life better.

...to love again maybe, to feel again, to stand up again...

gotta find that fucking 25th hour!!!

i wish, as soon as possible...

blurryyy

-december-

last photos i took, just after my camera broke down...

that's why they're all blurry...

long sleeve sweater / from a local store

dress / mango

heels / mudo

earrings / vintage

i am so sad that i cant take photos and update my blog =(

project jury --> 26 january

this nightmare will end next month. i have to be a little more patient.

lock me up in a cage please, will you?

i saw the cherry blossom girl aka alix wearing these babies,

and the bootie ones on stockholm streetstyle page.

...and i wonder what is the price...

.......theeeen i looked it up from net-a-porter!

yes it is on sale, yes it is still a lil expensive and yesss 'out of stock'! =)

well, it is nice to meet you dear yves saint laurent cage heels...i hope one day we'll meet again...

your history is mine!

funeral for a friend - history

such a nice album 'hours'... but still way too depressive for me to listen

-at least nowadays-

well i used to listen all the time.

but the song 'history' still kills me, hurts me deep inside...

i've never get bored of it. it takes away my pains, even my physical pains. it is funny but it is true! =)

i guess 'history' is one of the best songs ever! ever!

there used to be times that every friend in my messenger list listens to this song...

being history bros =) fun times...