being peg bundy

yes i adore her, yes i will be just like her! =)

yea i will cook meals with a cigarette between my lips, yes i will love my husband like forever and i will make him pay for being with me! =)

beside the jokes, peg bundy is unique, fun, beautiful and dandy! a little bit disgusting maybe, but i think it is ok! everyone is a little bit disgusting. at least she has leopard printed tights =) dont you think so?

p.s.: this photo is like 2 years old... i was wearing stupid clothes to make my friends laugh.

it turned out to be a weird fashion show =)

belt & necklace / vintage

everything else is from local stores

illustration is from newyork.timeout.com

open library

sketches...

just the mass designing...

first step i can say.

to see someone beautiful die...

...makes you feel weird.

she died last night, brittany murphy.

she was so young...

she was so beautiful...

skip wednesday?

my project jury is in this week, on this wednesday...

ARRRGHH!

dont wanna hear their public humiliation kinda words about the project and about my presentation and me myself. from head to toe. oh it is just sooo nightmarish, i even cant get no sleep because of it.

i know my project and my presentation will be a handful of shit, coz there's so small amount of time but huuugeee buildings to design and solve and urban design decisions to take.

if i'd believed that crying would solve the problems and make me get away from this wednesday aka 'execution day' safely, i'd cry! but hell no, there's no turning back, no escaping!

ahhhh, if any of you think about taking architecture classes in the future, my adviced would be ''DONT''! yep, dont take that classes, dont do projects, dont think of even anything, see life in the easiest way. live your life! let other people plan things for you, let other people gone bald because of thinking... you just live your life! that's my advice.

architecture sucks! i hate it! it fucked up all my life!

since 5 years, i think about on literally everything. every small piece to every huge stuff. it is messing my mind and my mind is now shutting down i am serious. i think i am going mad!

i hate urban design, i hate restoration or any other historical stuff, i hate designing museums all the f*ing time, i hate big concrete walls and slopes and stairs and big glass façades. i hate designin even a bulb and in a building. even, i hate designing my presentation sheets' thickness and the thickness and colour of the border line around it.

i hate architecture! if you have any small thought on being an architect, that means forgetting your life and friends and lover and family. that means you cant stop being a jerk all your lifetime, coz people around you will always say that you see every detail differently from them. that's true. you're gonna see everything. every little mistake in everywhere, every bad design and every ignorance person will make you go mad. people around you will be totally cool about life but nah you wont, you will never.

so dont be an architect!

it is the best curse ever!

your hair will go white quicker, your wont be able to see in front of your nose and you'll have a hunchback because of the responsibilities on your back.

wishlist for 2010!

i dont care if santa or someone else brings one of those to me.

not referred to anyone =)

...'whoever considers or feel responsible to' i can say.

here's my wishlist for new year!

-1-

that bebe heels or at least something like that. =)

i guess they're from last seasons so i cant find them.

taghrid sells it from here but unfortunately it is not my size...

-2-

dinsko or topshop or from whatever label it is, fishnet heels.

i cant stop staring at them!

-3-

these dinsko boots are my all time favourite!

but hear what they say on their site,

'orders and deliveries can be made only in Sweden.'

anyone has a friend living in sweden right now?

-4-

black and cream lace dresses, both.

i still cant find the beautiful ones,

so i am not uploading any photos of crap dresses here =)

-5-

acid wash grey skinny jeans.

i cant find any of them,

when i find ones, they dont worth buying.

i want that kind of one that betty wears.

it from miss selfridge but sure it is not in the stocks anymore! =(

-6-

i want anything that sequined, zipped, ripped, studded!

i guess this one is so general...whatever...

-7-

i want perfect red flats and heels and boots, all of them!

since 4 years, i couldnt find the perfect ones for me =(

and yeah, no photos...

so lets pass to the 8th one!

-8-

need a hairdresser who doesnt wear weird shirts with red roses on it.

well it bugs me coz they look so weird and cut crap hair.

my hair looks crap!

crap!

-9-

i need some answers for my life,

it is now obvious that i cant find the answers

and i started seeing myself as i am not able to get over many things,

and i dont know if i should do that, too.

i dunno if anyone can give me the answers that i need,

but maybe a magic-8-ball might be a little helpful,

coz since i've lost mine, i am lost too.

-10-

i want my project to be done,

but i dont wanna do it myself =(

so santa or whoever i am referring to, would you draw it for me? and, if i find it in my flash disk as in pdf format,

ready to be plotted, i'd be glad =)

i am a good kiddo, i always was and i promise i always will be,

i'll do the model =)

simple past

i took this one 2 years ago.

i still dont know how i got that blue light in my small room in the midnight.

coz actually the real light in my room is yellowish.

well, i am upset that i broke down my camera 2 weeks ago. i have totally cool outfits and new belongings these days and now i dont have a camera to take photos.

i hope i will hand in my project succesfully in 23th of january. then i'll buy a new better camera for better shoots. wish me luck!

necklace used as a headband & rings/ from my grandma's closet

dark green linen shorts / from a local store

sequin tie / flea market

fixing blog up!

tomorrow i am fixin this blog up. bigger photos and a better simple functional layout.
it is exciting. but i gotta sleep now...

bored!

one of my everyday looks... it is boring.

shoes / zara

jewelery & studded belt / koton

it is love!

my steve madden heels. i love them too much that i cant even wear them outside =)

this one is 3 years ago i guess... i used to be a redhead. well... it is hard to be a redhead after platinium blonde. i suggest you never try that out. =)

far away

unfortunately i broke down my camera and i'm gonna hand in my last project 7 weeks later so i got huge work to do...

thats why i am away and i'll be away and my clothes will be away.

i am gonna be a boring person in these weeks, more than i ever was... i am sorry.

but i'll be super duper back, i can say. =)

(peaches - i dont give a fuck)

photos no.1-2 / dilovası - project area

photo 3 / model of the concept of the atelier design