death.

i lost my granddad. most terrible times i've ever spent, been spending.

i was away, in another city, for nearly 10 days.

terrible things happened.

terrible things keep happening.

i dont know what will my grandmom do by herself, alone...

she doesnt wanna leave her house ever.

i dont know what will happen to my granddad's store...

weird things keep happening about it, and i cant believe what i've been seeing lately.

truely, i dont wanna believe what my eyes has seen and my ears have heard.

i feel depressed.

i feel like, i have noone to call and tell how unhappy i am,

coz probably noone will ever understand.

this is not anyone's fault i guess, it's just

i am always unable to show my feelings during my daily life, i usually smile so unnecessarily much.

...and i keep complaining about stuff which are really not that important.

well, anyways...

for 10 days.

i was away from everything.

now, everything feels so weird.

internet,

people i know,

people i dont know,

people i thought i knew

and normal vegetable meals...

away

i have been away and i'll be away for a while i'm sorry.

shit happens.

24042010

there she was just walkin down the street singin doo wah diddy diddy dum diddy doo...

then suddenly, bam!!! these sunglasses blew me!

as you might guess, love at first sight! (again)

well, what can i say, i fall in love so quickly even i cant catch up with myself... =)

these sunglasses remind me of the ones called 'postcard' from prada spring 2010 rtw collection but more edgy.

chanel & denim co.

...i am not a fan of prada nor ferre but these sunglasses are totally hot! fun stuff!

omg! shoes!

reebok it is!

what wonderful colours!

impossible to choose one of them, at least i cant be that unfaithful to the other ones!

that's why i didnt buy any of them. =)

really, i'm serious, if i had the chance, i'd buy all of them at once.

you know it is 'all or nothing' kinda thing.

anyways, we had so much fun and spent so much time trying all those crazy-lookin shoes.

yep, all of them!

they were nearly kickin us out of the store.

wish i could've taken more photos but,

...but silly me, i'd forgotten to bring my charger with me for the weekend.

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these shoes below, i call them 'moon shoes', are my favourites!

so high top, so neon, unbelievable cool!

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...aaand these below are my bf's own vip choice, just for himself.

this last shot is my bf's '' 'all or nothing' decision time'' pose!

it is totally spontaneous, i like it! =)

ps: i'm being 'a little' ignorant about my blog, sorry but it is my 'lord of the rings' week so i just lean back, watch the movie and eat junk food. =)

banksy

leg chains...

...are sexxxy!

the chains of love

office diaries vol.3

good morning everyone!

back again with an casual office outfit with lots of unnecessary jewelery. =) thanks to my friend in office for photos.

my bf was coming so i finished my drawings in a rush yesterday

so that i could be free to leave office like 6:30pm.

we came home together and saw that my sister made a surprise and came to Istanbul to see us and to spend the weekend.

after some hugging and kissing ceremony, altogether we went outside for a walk to lose weight and ate waffles to gain weight.=)

i wish i can spend my ever day like this one.

green jeans / coll.

boots / from a local store ( i forgot to tell you that its their own design)

button-up cardigan / tita

linen shirt / y-london

jewelery / from here and there =)

the house cafe

i met my old friends. cant tell how much i felt happy.

it's been 2 days but i'm still smiling awkwardly all day long.

coz i'd lost them like 6 years ago, tried to reach them but couldnt find even any trace of them since the day before yesterday.

i remember the days we used to go to studio everday to make music.

did anything we wanted to do.

everyday was full of fun.

those were the days...

then suddenly everything else started to go down.

we all fell apart.

had fights... bad things happened...

i really dont wanna remember coz these thoughts still make me sad.

anyways,

after all said and done, we are still here, together.

i hope everything goes fine this time.

coz i miss everything about them.

fedora

hanging around

i spent some time on the outside world. sun was shining... ate my lunch outside with my bf.

today, even burger king seemed to be a nicer place as i hate fast food though.

by the way i'm still drawing and working on a project.

it has to be finished till tomorrow afternoon.

but i dont know if its possible, coz still i got so much work to do on it...

well, i'm soooooo tired... so i'm off to bed now. f*ck projects or whatever! i dont care!

leopard flats / lcw

jeans / denim co.

blazer & bag / mudo collection

white top / who knows...

blue shirt / gift from my mother

bracelet / flea market